This song has been coming up again and again in prayer lately.
I think a lot of us can relate to those first few weeks or months after we met Jesus. It's (a little tiny bit) like when the shy girl in school finally realizes that the hot shot football player is pursuing her. Jesus comes to meet us so much quicker than we are willing to turn to Him, and those first few months of consolation are so sweet.
Before we get into all that is Lent, here's a little recap of how I celebrated Mardi Gras, just in case you missed my snapchat story.
Obviously, pretending that snapchat is my very own cooking show is my specialty. Steps 5 and 6 are missing because they're videos and I'm technologically challenged.
When I delivered a King Cake to one of my friends, she asked if there was a baby in it. I said "of course!" And she pointed to her belly and said, "there is a baby in here too!!" It was such an awesome surprise!! 4 of my friends from my parish are pregnant! God is so good!
I have failed in a lot of my February Resolutions. But I am resolved to do better in March... because, Lent.
The only hit up the gym 6 times so far this month (not going to make it to 12...) and I have been eating well above the recommended daily dose of chicken nuggets.
BUT! I did reconnect with more than 3 people. So, winning. I went to dinner with a new friend twice, called an old friend to catch up, and hung out with some of the college bests this past weekend.
I loved adding the "reconnect" piece to my resolutions for this month. There are many things that I can do on any given day, and for as much as I crave community, it's silly how rarely I reach out. I want to get better!
A few months ago, my spiritual director told me that I needed to learn to live in the moment. I'm sure at some point I prayed for the grace to be able to do that, and I'm sure he's probably been praying for that for me too, because good grief, did God show up in a big way. It's had a bit of a different impact than I expected. My whole life I've been looking forward to the next thing. When I run out of next things to look forward to, I freak out about my vocation or some other equally uncontrollable variable.
Over the past few months, I've felt life slow way down before my eyes. In general, I'm focusing on myself: my laundry gets done, my sheets get washed every two weeks, my ceiling fan gets dusted, I grocery shop and cook, I read, I go to the gym! I pray and I go to Mass a couple times per week. I'm making new friends. I'm doing well at work and keeping on top of things. Things are calm and peaceful. In addition to all of this, I don't feel busy at all. I haven't stopped being busy since I started middle school. It's all so weird.
When I was talking to my spiritual director about this quiet time I'm in the middle of right now, he said it sounded like God was inviting me to work on myself like a project and to become more self aware. I don't even know how to go about tackling the mess that is my soul, except for to start with the things exteriorly that I can control. Well.. I consider the controllables controlled. Now it's time to trudge onward into the depths, I suppose! Pray for me!
Today is the Feast of the Purification of Mary, when Simeon told her that her own heart would be pierced by a sword.
O glorious Virgin, ever blest, sublime among the stars above,
Who gavest nurture from Thy breast to God, with pure maternal love.
What man hath lost through sinful Eve, the Blossom sprung from thee restores;
Thou to the sorrowing here beneath hast opened Heaven's eternal doors.
O Gate, through which hath passed the King, O Hall, whence Light shone through the gloom!
The ransomed nations praise and sing the Offspring of Thy Virgin womb.
All honor, laud, and glory be, O Jesus, Virgin-born, to Thee:
All glory, as is ever meet, to Father and to Paraclete.
Here's a great choral version:
Go running ten times. Check. Just went for the tenth time about two hours ago.
Spend 8 hours in Adoration. FAIL. Majorly. I only spent about 3 hours in Adoration all month. But I went to Mass 12 times. I want to do better.
Write in this blog two more times. Check, check.
Drink one gallon of water per day and eat clean for 20 days. Check. I took before and after pictures to see if I could tell a difference in my skin after drinking a gallon of water per day for 20 days, and I can't. But I know it's good for me, so I want to keep going.
Do something that makes me uncomfortable. Check, times two. I both accepted and extended lunch invitations that made me uncomfortable. Also I had some friends over for dinner, which didn't make me uncomfortable except that I made them a questionable recipe for Whole30 Chili which they said they liked. Note to self: don't make your friends be your recipe guinea pigs.
Pray a novena. Check. I'm on day 7 of a novena which ends on the Feast of the Purification of Mary.
Update on me:
Nothing huge has been happening in prayer or otherwise.
The most exciting thing in my life is that my mom got two new puppies and I.AM.OBSESSED.
They're the cutest.
Here are some pictures:
Cricket is the black one, she's super outgoing and rambunctious and TROUBLE.
Trixie is the brown one and she's shy and sweet as can be. And a chicken.
I love them.
And because you're all dying to know:
Gym x 12
Finish 3 books
Reconnect with 3 friends
Prepare for Lent